Showing posts with label emotions. Show all posts
Showing posts with label emotions. Show all posts

Sunday, August 01, 2010

Our Angel Has Gone Back to Heaven



while the other tita's are cooking or talking, we play.

i remember sitting you on the table so that we can play with your birthday cake's characters. or that the morning in Los Banos when you pulled down each of our blankets just to make sure you'd say good morning to right tita. our first born always eager to experience life.

then i got busy and limited my involvement with talks on the phone that became further and further apart till almost none. then i get a phone call from your ninang that i had to see you today, cause you had said goodnight to this life.

oh how i cried to the years i could have spent with you. i know you would have hushed me and would assure me that you are in a better place anyway.

my dear Io, no words can express the spectrum of emotions i feel. i can go on with i would have wanted clauses but all that wouldn't matter anymore. all i can give now is a promise that you will never be forgotten! and that you have knocked me to the conciousness that opportunities can never be relived so we need to enjoy them when the moment is offered.

goodnight my Io, you will always be remembered...

Thursday, August 06, 2009

at day's end

there's that wish
that each time I turn the knob
someone is waiting
with hugs and kisses
that brushes the day's pain away

that you would be there
cause today i came home
missing you terribly

Friday, February 06, 2009

Zahir

AKU BUKAN UNTUK MU
I'm Not Meant For You

by Rossa

You used to love me
You used to want me
Although you never had my answer
Didn't mean that you should leave me

Now you're going astray
Now you're leaving me
Just when I started to rely on you
And I plead you to forgive me

I regret that I've made you cry
And let you choose someone else
But don't ever deny your destiny
Because it must be the best for you

Don't ever remember me anymore
I'm not meant for you
Even if I beg and ask for your heart
Don't ever leave her for me

Now you're going astray
Now you're leaving me
Just when I started to rely on you
And I plead you to forgive me


I regret that I've made you cry
And let you choose someone else
But don't ever deny your destiny
Because it must be the best for you

Don't ever remember me anymore
I'm not meant for you
Even if I beg and ask for your heart
Don't ever leave her for me

Even if I beg and ask for your heart
Don't ever leave her for me


Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Who would...


taken from A Cup of Jo

Saturday, January 10, 2009

jammed up and overanalyzing



my head at this point
is like an intersection with a busted traffic light
every thought trying to get to their destination
only to be cut off by another rushing through
colliding into the incoming
each one trying to honk their horn
and flash their lights
its been like this for days
nothing comes through in one piece
utter chaos

my initial reaction - analyze and fix
nothing, so i analyze some more
till there is no more
and i am all thinked out
frustrated
stressed
i tired!

i dont know how the light got busted
and i definitely am clueless at how to fix it

what a way to start my year
i need to turn this around
*sounds the whistle*

Monday, September 15, 2008

to a wife, from his friend


Dear Mrs. HisWife,

I met with your husband last night.

Please don’t think wicked of it. We only had a drink and it wasn't even alcoholic. Just a friendly catch up between friends was all it was. We animatedly talked about what has happened in a year. The sport , the people and trivial things. We also talked about where life has taken us.

And as I listened to him talk about his business heartaches and dreams I wanted to go up to you, stretch out my hand to show appreciation. This time he didn't leave you out of the conversation. He proudly told me about what you have been doing. The career change with a side note of how similar our jobs are now. Plus you wanting him home early every night, making sure he doesnt become a workaholic (he needs to be reminded every chance you get).

Thank you for slowly being part of his life. For being there during the moments that really matter to him. For taking the step to alter situations so that he can feel that someone supports him. Last night I felt that he finally feels that he has someone.

He is a great guy and I know that it is something that you also know. All he needs is for someone to tell him that every now and then. Things don't have to be serious all the time. Take time to act silly and let go of sophistication...you'll see how his eyes light up like that of a child.

His heart has been broken by business deals and some people he thought were friends. I dont want bitterness to be part of such a beautiful heart. I'm leaving soon and all he has is you.

Please continue being in the boat with him. He chose you to be his wife. I am only an emergency raft which exists in a parallel universe called friendship. I am aware that between our worlds are boundaries...I will respect that.



In good faith,


Your husband's # 1 friend

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