di malilimutan

went venue hunting at UP Diliman today for a possible event client.

being in the campus can put u in a nostalgic mode. reminiscing tambayans and people. and seeing certain "spots" where memories where first casted.

yes UP di ka malilimutan.

what now?

when my room's a mess

it's usually a reflection

of how my mind is at the moment.

the feeling of wanting things to work

and fear of finally declaring that it won't

puts hand to my throat and i feel like throwing up.

its not about too many things

rather finding which things i want to keep

then it's believing that things will flow well

this is faith. and this i pray.

Only Php 3800 6996 Roundtrip to Kota Kinabalu, Malaysia on Cebu Pacific

its summer and vacation time very soon!
what better way to celebrate it than go on trip to sabah, malaysia.

i just checked online, and currently cebu pacific's MLA-KOTA KINABALU-MLA ticket
for the month of may to 1st week of july is ONLY 3800PESOS Php 6996 (as of March 13) round trip with tax.
since its a promo limited slots as per the airline.

i can help with the accommodation and booking your activities in kota kinabalu,
through trusted tour operators and backpacker lodges.
we also have options for hotels if you would like.

you may be interested...

· to see mt. kinabalu, which is southeast asia’s highest peak
· experience the thrill of white water rafting in either kiulu or padas river
· see the probosis monkey and firelflies on our garama rivercruise
· you can also explore the culture of the kadazan-dusun, badjao, murut and other sabahan tribes through their handicrafts, food and wine
· you can even get away for a nature safari in the Kinabatangan River
· a new secluded beach and diving resort has also recently been opened in mantanani kecil island

this will be your malaysian escapade, your memories!
and sabah being gifted with its beaches, mountains, forests and rivers
will definitely have something in store for you, your friends and even your family!

let me help you make your summer route of fun.
travelling is my passion. i’d be happy to share my own experiences and pictures.
you reach me at +639172085317
or email me at mhayrondael@yahoo.com

i would also appreciate if you can also refer me to friends that might be interested.
thanks!! happy travelling!

of names and symbols

was trying to do some research on name meanings and the etymology of names when I stumbled upon the website of hidden name meanings.

it said my name say this...

You have enormous vitality and originality making you a dynamic individual with great charm and sex appeal. You believe in putting hundred percent into all your activities of which there are many. You have potential to achieve great success in business or public affairs where your friendship and consideration of others wins you many allies. Your innate strength and determined effort is able to overcome any obstacles. Freedom is important to you.

i would agree about being dynamic (more of so many things happening at once), and in putting 100% in my many activities.

funny is that whether it be about me being a Gemini, or the meaning of my individual names (i have 2), even my native american totem being the Orca and now the hidden meaning in my name. They all say 2 things in common about me, that I want & like variety and that I value freedom. I'd have to agree as well.

In short, my sistah gege was right in tagging me as always inlove with life. i am madly in love with it.

choices

you always have a choice
(or at the very least influence)
to what happens in your life.

at the end of the day
what matters is you feel good
about who you have become
from the choices you make.

and if you dont,
believe that you can still make another choice,
to make you become better...then much better...
and even better...
day after day.

things have been changing...rather changed!

old trees are being uprooted
and new ones may be planted soon
so many changes in my backyard
i am afraid i may not recognize it
when I go home

it's his last day in the company today
after today, there will other events
that will change what i called home.

part of me accepts, and part is sad
sad because changes bring a phase of unknown.
you are part of the picture when i speak of "home"
and by tomorrow
i have to get used to some people not being where they usually are
that by the time I do get there some guys may be on a different raft.

i hold on to the assurance that despite the movement
that it's not about the company, but rather the relationship
that the friendship is what's important.

we may move on to other places, jobs or get married
but that does not change that we are friends.

n said that we will not know
what will happen tomorrow or a week from now
what's been happening the past couple of weeks
is giving the statement its truth.

jangan kamu lupa! we will keep in touch!

dear God,

i have this growing feeling in me
that i want to explore beyond my box
that i want to be able to see if i can exist
apart from what i deem comfortable

to pack my bags and open a new door
to another world that i do not know yet

i ask that you create doors for me
and remind me they can come in many shapes

i'd like to be able to go to a new place
for at least a year
this is my hearts wish

Graduating Life With Honors

Song Of Myself
by Walt Whitman

"You shall no longer take things at second or third hand,
not look through the eyes of the dead,
nor feed on the spectres in books.

You shall not look through my eyes either,
nor take things from me,
you shall listen to all sides
and filter them from yourself."

silly silly men

yes you are a silly man
which little bird
told you that getting engaged
solves problems?
point, so i can shoot it

i should hit you in the head
theres more sense in that

havent we all learned
from our other friend
who didnt do it out of love
now theres 2 of you, oh make that 3!

open your eyes
there is still hope
you silly silly men....

______________

20 Feb 2009

i like giving pet names
so to the 3 of you
i officially knight as you as
the tunang boys

yes you are boys that
in my opinion have hangups
one didnt do it out of love
the other did it to get noticed
by the woman he really loved
and the newest member...
why did you go through with it na nga?

*sigh*

benjamin said...

For what it's worth:
it's never too late or, in my case,
too early to be whoever you want to be.

There's no time limit,
stop whenever you want.
You can change or stay the same,
there are no rules to this thing.
We can make the best or the worst of it.

I hope you make the best of it.
And I hope you see things that startle you.
I hope you feel things you never felt before.
I hope you meet people with a different point of view.
I hope you live a life you're proud of.

If you find that you're not,
I hope you have the strength
to start all over again.

-the curious case of benjamin button

then i cried and then laughed.

it happens quite often like a natural reaction
because in my life, I embrace
the marriage of comedy and drama.

that these too opposites have solemly sworn
to be a couple in each and every moment
of my life journey

this movie proved, i am not alone in this thinking.

there was once a little girl...

that loved to sing this song ...



she memorized it
it even came with some fancy sign language hand movements

it was back when...
she had passion
and in her head she could see
where it was she wanted to go.

then the notes changed
together with things around her.

today, the song found her again.

Zahir

AKU BUKAN UNTUK MU
I'm Not Meant For You
by Rossa

You used to love me
You used to want me
Although you never had my answer
Didn't mean that you should leave me

Now you're going astray
Now you're leaving me
Just when I started to rely on you
And I plead you to forgive me

I regret that I've made you cry
And let you choose someone else
But don't ever deny your destiny
Because it must be the best for you

Don't ever remember me anymore
I'm not meant for you
Even if I beg and ask for your heart
Don't ever leave her for me

Now you're going astray
Now you're leaving me
Just when I started to rely on you
And I plead you to forgive me


I regret that I've made you cry
And let you choose someone else
But don't ever deny your destiny
Because it must be the best for you

Don't ever remember me anymore
I'm not meant for you
Even if I beg and ask for your heart
Don't ever leave her for me

Even if I beg and ask for your heart
Don't ever leave her for me

but it's mine

there is something that you want
you choose the path
and yet it seems the roads are long
the wait lead to questions
more and more questions lead you to doubt

and yet you tell yourself...
but this is MY dream

its based on how i see myself
and what i would want
it reflects my emotions
it has been shaped by my journeys
validated by the people i have met
shouldn't it be what i follow...
my own map to my own future...

can ones dream or personal legend be wrong?
if so how can we trust what is right?

and so it is...

thanks goes out to ivan
spamps and pangs
support group - mary, kai, ate tin
catorce sta. catalina posse

dream catching

I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
Ill cross the stream - I have a dream

I have a dream, a fantasy
To help me through reality
And my destination makes it worth the while
Pushing through the darkness still another mile
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
Ill cross the stream - I have a dream
Ill cross the stream - I have a dream

I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
Ill cross the stream - I have a dream
Ill cross the stream - I have a dream

cycle of acceptance

to hope,
to want,
and gracefully accept the opposite.
this i know.

this is how it has been,
but hopefully how it will not always be.

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

Who would...

taken from A Cup of Jo

jammed up and overanalyzing

my head at this point
is like an intersection with a busted traffic light
every thought trying to get to their destination
only to be cut off by another rushing through
colliding into the incoming
each one trying to honk their horn
and flash their lights
its been like this for days
nothing comes through in one piece
utter chaos

my initial reaction - analyze and fix
nothing, so i analyze some more
till there is no more
and i am all thinked out
frustrated
stressed
i tired!

i dont know how the light got busted
and i definitely am clueless at how to fix it

what a way to start my year
i need to turn this around
*sounds the whistle*

Birthdays and Harvest Festivals

this is a very late post on kaamatan.
but i was surfing accent videos online and found this.
its actually is a nice song which describes the festival.

kaamatan is a harvest festival of the kadasan-dusun tribe of sabah.
each May the tribe celebrate it, each area of sabah a different date,
which makes a month long celebration.
last year, i was able to celebrate it in kota kinabalu
may 30, my birthday, and the entire KK also clebrates with me.
that makes it memorable.

if you get to be in Sabah this year, join in the fun.
the music, food and rice wines...
may 30 will always be a festival for them.
to me it's also celebrating and toasting to a generous harvest of life.

Need to Start Marketing Us

Its 2009!

so happy new year everyone.

i enjoy planning.
there's no better time to do this than the start of the year.
so for this week I will be planning out my entire year.
and who knows i may even write about it here as i go along.
i know i should have done this towards the end of december.
but cut me some slack cause it has been the most hectic 2 weeks in my life.
it seems everyone came home this year.
family friends that i havent seen for a long time
made a trip down from the US and Canada
indeed so many things, so little time.
one of things i need to do though, aside from finishing my Accent Reduction Module,
is to start looking for new clients.
the freelance world is all new to me,
but i am sure loving the challenge.

so i’ve been reading the Freelance Switch
and they have a very informative post on 101 Ideas to Get More Freelance Work.
this was very helpful.
i guess it’s about time
i get this business out there.