NO LONGER IN SLUMBER...

he's back!!!! it was so good to watch a brother playing his guitar with no else than sheer talent and heart. and what's make the night all the more special was sharing a few beers with him and suplada. i really had a wonderful time. bro, nice to see yah back in action. stay happy! suplada gurl, your rock!!!

thruly a kodak moment night. wow we had great photos...we gotta post em up guys!!

strange this ache i feel from within. how i wish there was a place to buy a pill from, pop it in, gulp down a glass of water and just wait for the pain to leave. to wake up feeling better.

why do i allow people to make me feel this way?? to let him hurt me this way. i allowed his words to cut a wound in my heart, punch a hole in my self-esteem tank. now i feel everything drain away slowly. hushing my self every now and then. so i retreat to those i call family. those i feel safe with. like a little girl, wanting to crawl into my daddy's lap and tell him to kiss this throbbing pain away.

i guess its all part of the tapestry called life. so i will let this pain go its way. weeding out the lessons and going forth much stronger. this weekend I will return to my sanctuary. to dive into its healing waters. a much needed release and some sun. maybe that can make me look at things in a different perspective.