Thursday, September 25, 2003

THE NEW JOB

its been great. the people have been fun. there was a bit of a withdrawal period from the previous company. but so far, so good. it has been very hectic as well, but at least you get to sit back and relax with co-trainers after the sessions.

Friday, September 12, 2003

MOVING ON...

my goodbye email to the company I have worked for two years...
i have always been emotional about goodbyes,
but i never thought i would be this attached to an organization.
iwill really miss the people and work environment here,
as they say, kakaiba...simply the bessssst!


Those were the days...
When all CCSs had rulers because the list was an excel print out, font 8
When we had to pile up scripts because we didn't have any software yet
When we had trivia chat sessions on AOL, complete with moderators
When we could still smoke in the pantry
When there was a big area to play and bond with team and batch
When there were more variations in the coffee machine
When you knew everyone because you had the same lunch break.
When foozball was a sport, it was a team effort that we actively engaged in
When the Dish account arrived and we had to camp out in the nap room for days to finish the manual
When the DISHers were also the recruitment team
When there was the Hatch Team that opened every account on the floor
When you really went to company parties because you knew you would miss half of your life if you didn't.

Those were times that I could say, in Globalstride we work hard but we also party harder.
There were crunch times, but it would never be without people that make it seem much lighter
We achieved in our job because we enjoyed the people and the environment we worked in.
That is the organization that I have grown to love.
Then slowly bosses, teammates and batchmates moved on,
Now it's my turn.

For the bosses and their open door policy, unselfishly giving an email or a pat on the back.
For the TLs and their extra motivational antics, and the belief they had in us.
For the fellow reps and their loyalty to the company.
For the company parties that were always one big teambuilding session.
This will be how I will always remember Globalstride.
As they say it is more than just a company, it was a family.
I was blessed to have been through those years with Globalstride.
And looking back I was fortunate to have experienced the growth to what the company is today.

As they say change will always be inevitable.
With my goodbye I utter blessings.
So with my hand over my heart, I thank everyone in this family.
To those that have left and to those that remain.
I will always be proud that I came from such an alternative company.

Wednesday, September 10, 2003

LOVING ONESELF

i choose to be free. i acknowledge that there is a cirle i need to consider. and within that circle i shall maximize my individuality. within those bounds I will make the most out of each day. i shall not depend on waiting for others to be prepared, hence i create the possibility for myself. with sincerity, my heart and the personality of my soul I give what I can give. yet I leave some for myself to grow. because now Iknow the importance of loving myself as well.

i start by realeasing you...



WHINNING ABOUT DECISIONS

dont' you get hunted by the thought of making the wrong decision? people say that it simply is a choice. true, but what about accepting the consequences behind that preference? and that sometimes you can't look that far ahead, because the circumstances seem to have built a wall. sometimes it is a result of the mistakes of the past. and because you accept the responsibility of that, you are the only one who can break it down. taking a mallet can't be the only way. you need consider the people around you, because the debris can be painful. still you have to make these decisions, otherwise you'll be stuck in a rut. so you take a step at a time, baby steps if need be. still you have to do it, the best way you know how. by waiting and praying...


STRENGTH

dont give up on me when you feel i do not listen,
you'll see that i'm learning from your life in my own way.

though i could be stubborn,
i do respect the wisdom i see from the way you react to situations,
let me process it through the filters that I have.

do not rush me,
let me grasp the lessons, slowly but surely.

i would bust down the doors if I find the need to.
but I also patiently wait for the right opportunities to sieze.
i am strong in my own way.

Saturday, September 06, 2003

i am dealing with dissapointments today...
it is much harder to accept when it comes from the people you love. despite not wanting to expect, there is still that part of you that does. like a child realizing she was lost. then panic fills you, and you just want to slump on the floor and cry. though you know you will eventually forgive at this point, your heart aches.


so drowned myself in alcohol last night...
you control wanting to shout words that you might regret. not being able to endure the sting of the situation, you look for diversion. your gaze falls on the bottle infront of you, it spells r-e-d h-o-r-s-e, ahhh! you take a gulp. then another. then another. the lightness, the uninhibited energy bursts out, and you start grooving to the reggae music. at that time you needed a distraction, and the alcohol helped.

but there was a new friend that was there.
a relationship that started from linking, reading and appreciating her work. and tonight you saw her as a companion. though there was no obligation, she was there to accomodate me into her group. after a few beers and yay-gers you both made sure that the night would be worth the memory and a blog entry. to you, my heartfelt thanks, i will return the favor!


in a way my heart was broken that night. and yet, i also enjoyed the new folks that i met. and to two people that came in the nick of time. what mattered was that both of you were there. thank you for bringing me back to mr. kebab, all because i really wanted to and you wouldnt want me to whine all morning right? feels good to eat after all the beers.

.: guess this night was all about making the most of the situation :.

Friday, September 05, 2003




DreamCatcher: disregarding the truth and waiting in vain for the sake of love are the sorriest sins a woman can make<<--comment on this statement

A: am processing
A: i'd like to believe that when you find love... it is the absolute meaning of truth.
A: it's reality staring you in the face. meeting you where you are.

DreamCatcher: but at this point in time when people are corrupted by everything and anything could there really be true love? or is it relative as well

A: i believe in true love. i need to believe in it for me to be able to keep an optimistic view of life. if you lose faith in that one beautiful thing, there really is not much to go on.

DreamCatcher: true true

A: i honestly believe that love will be relative until you meet the right person
A: questions and doubts will arise until you come to that place where you release all of yourself and are willing to give it all up to another
A: that to me is true love and until you get there you cant describe it
A: i need to make myself vulnrable to some extent in order for me to know what i truly feel
A: without pain you dont know if you love

Wednesday, September 03, 2003

i live just like a woman,
make love just like a woman,
ache just like a woman.
but i break...just like a little girl.

-nina simone


i just got off the phone with alystaire. and i am just appreciating our conversations. they get to be very woman-like but we tend to conclude that we will always be the daddy's girl that we are. we reminisce about our growing up, she being in an american school and my hopping from one province to another. or how funny that when other girls were playing with dolls, we were in the firing ranges with our dads. also the fisihing trips that we thought were a waste of our time, but are part of the package that made us the woman we are. we give ourselves affirmations that we never really got to tell each other when we were living in the same country. but it's never too late! now I feel our relatinship growing even if she's in the other part of the globe. we get to talk about the impact of the decisions we have made in our lives, the carrer goals we have been thinking about and the men that seem to confuse use every now and then. sharing how we continually deal with the insecurities we have as a person. the vanity and spontaneity. don't we just love life?

its funny that because our parents were bestfriends then we became almost like sisters. you, me and angelsa. tres marias as they used to call us in church. and our being the only girl in each family made the realtionship even more solid. oceans may keep us apart physically, but our souls will always reach each other in prayer. i love you both to the core of my being. to eternity and beyond.

Monday, September 01, 2003

PURE SHORES

i set forth on that voyage with one thing in mind. to renew my exhausted soul. now that I look back, I got more than what i prayed for. the weather had tried to test my will, now I know it was a premonition. a sign that it would be a different weekend, one that would definitely have a special place in my life.

i taught me to rest...despite the energy that overwhelms me when i am in the island, i listened to my body this time. it has been deprived of sleep for so long. so that afternoon with the waves singing its lullabye, i closed my eyes and gave in. it was a night that I made peace with my body.

it taught me to believe in myself again...life is indeed like a wheel. there will always be a times that you have to deal with insecurity breakdowns. its part of going back to the middle. but that night at the beach brought people that just seem to gas up your self-esteem. it made me all the more say, its good to be home.

it taught me that attitude IS contagious...that sometimes things may not turn out the way we want them to, but we have to make the most of the situation. and though there is a default reaction to it, but still you kiss and make up! now i know that fun is not in the situation, but it is an attitude. it is you that makes a moment fun and exciting, that's when people are attracted to what you and your friends have.

it has taught me to enjoy the moment...totem poles in the water. trepassing on private property. pesto and vodka. hotdogs and wine. not the usual combinations, but it makes it even more memorable. and your left with pictures in your mind that you will keep in your heart's scrapbook. then once in a while our minds will suddenly play the slide show of the images and all you can do is smile. and in times when you're alone and moments flashes back, you can't help but say, i am blessed.

it taught me to be grateful for a new relationship...it's recognizing the value of new people in your life. it's appreciating them for the new perspective they give. ordinary things that seem to take a different shape because they made you look at it in a different angle. bugs, i hope that you enjoyed the weekend as much as I did. thank for the pesto and the music. again i raise my glass, to more escapades.

it taught me how important friendships are...i share the island with my soul sisters and though we were missing one i count my blessings. we made a different set of memories that weekend with two other people. a new set of footprints on the shores of a place i consider my sanctuary. it also renewed a bond with a person that forever will be a part of my life. my bestfriend and sister, that homecoming would be a fragment of our life puzzle that I will forever hold near my heart. you have held my hand through the times that i felt the waves over my head. the dolphins were our gift, i love you rache!


so with a renewed spirit and a rejuvenated soul, i am ready to the face the reality of life once again.

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