EXTREME EXCITEMENT

i wanna go! I wanna meet the people! I wanna start! let's go! wahoooo!!!!!!!!!!!!

that's how excited I am with this new job. now to those that have been reading me blogs. this is a new new job from the last new job I posted. yes, i resigned from new one and now I have another new one. confused? don't be. let's just say that now I have broken free of the clasps of the call center routine. a start to going to the path of my dreams. makes me all the more believe in destiny.

funny how all it took was to make that one big leap. letting go of the emotional baggages and excuses. i stopped saying "but what if I dont find a new job," or "but I need to sustain myself, I can't afford not having a job." once I took that step everything just fell in place.

i believe i am gonna love my new stress source (aka job) since it is so my personality. so tourism, here I come!!!!!

when you up in the mountains away from the worries, it seems that the mind is clearer to think and realize. for once again change is upon me and the two personalities that exists within me are one again in a debate of how to cope with it.

i was supposed to co-facilitate in subic but its seems that I got more out of the sessions than my participants. if there were two realizations that were imbedded in my mind during the teambuilding it would be that fear would always exist when there is change and its just up to us to manage that fear and that sometimes our attitude should just be JUST DO IT!

i acknowledge that it was my fault, and now I should take the consequence. i was scared of what could happen after my decison. what i was doing what making excuses. all you gotta do is go for it. that is what i should be doing. and its not after I go to the beach or something it should be NOW! i shouldnt be focusing on how high the pole is from the ground but rather in just climbing it all the way. as the xtreme adventure manager said, there are things in life wherein full understanding is not needed, you just have to do it. stop analyzing and just do it. what i need right now is to have the courage to move on no questions asked. i should be able to have the excitement as wanting to climbing that 25 foot pole. and once i get to the top i need to also have the courage to make that leap. then only will i be able to say I have overcome the obstacle.

this will be another ride of my life but now I can say i will be able to go through it with a different mindset and attitude. so friends can I trust you with my life, cause now I'll be climbing...

i mark the last period and flip the page to start another chapter of my so-called life. with a new job and a new journal, i look forward to what is instore for me.

learning from what has been. i face these blank pages with the eagerness to fill them with more celebrations, appreciation and experiences.

INFORMATION OVERLOAD

its hard to be back as a participant in a training session when for almost a year and a half you've been facilitating and designing the course. now I find myself overwhelmed by the pressure of catching up with the other particiapnts. not that I'm slow or anything but its just that I process things differently now. there's too much numbers and memorizing abbreviations. gosh! my mind can't take this beating!

but in general the new company has been great. I like the lay-out of the center not to mention the location of our building. the people have also been accomodating and they're all young as well.