if I blink

will it take me there?

to the train tracks

below the wind

I ask questions that sometimes I know the answer to. I ask them for the mere reason that the act itself might change the outcome. It's the child in me not wanting to grow up or take no for an answer.

Yes I am falling once again. Maybe not at the man that you are but at the thought of someone being there. Of you possessing traits of the weary traveler that my heart patiently waits for. At the patio this heart has been sitting, and longing for someone to open the gate.

You appeared and held on to the gate, I look up. I see you standing there, behind you a river with waves of hope, a blue & white rubber boat and paddles. After a few exchanges you fell silent. No words not even the slightest movement. Should I move forward, take your hand and usher you in? Or better yet, I wait for you to take that step forward or for you to stretch your hand out to signal me near. This is not the first time there is a man at the gate. By now I know that He sends out messengers to teach me to know the difference between desperation and when it is time. So till you do I shall be thankful of the shadow of who you could be.

I do not suffer because of your presence but instead I make you an inspiration of how it feels when my weary traveler pushes the gate open and says I am home.

Situations...

I can once again write my thoughts down in my own sanctuary, at my own time with the comforting hum of my choice. I have missed this potential.

It could be a season, a few months or even days for us to realize what it is that we need to learn before our lives can start flowing again. They call this phase the rut or as a song goes, being stuck in a moment. I haven't fully grasped what it is that I need to learn at this time, but I am definitely stumped at this rotunda where stand in the middle confused. Weeks ago it seemed the direction was clear and that by this time I would have made a letter that would be my ticket to a new life, a fresh page. But here I am , still in the same room, writing my emotions out.

Oh grant me the patience to wait and the wisdom to make the right decisions as the situation calls for it.

Lasting Friendship

When Gemini girl gets together with Sagittarius guy, it's not just a match made in heaven, it's a lasting friendship. Sagittarius boy will fill your head with grand dreams and visions about travel and all sorts of exciting adventures, and you'll love every minute of it. Just remember that when you act as a team, dreams and visions can become realities.

to expect is to set yourself up for disappointments
i like this to unfold the way it should, not the way i want.

Beautiful Surprise

Whatever it is that you came to teach me
I am here to learn it cause
I believe that we are written in the stars
I don't know what the future hold
But I'm living in the moment
And I'm thankful for the man that you are, you are, you are
You are everything I ask for in my prayers
So I know my angels brought you to my life
Your energy is healing to my soul
You are a beautiful surprise
You are an inspiration to my life
You are the reason why I smile
You are a beautiful surprise
-India Arie


these emotions i have for you. this like have for you. nothing can change it. heck i didnt even ask for it. i saw you and kaboom!

so you dont have to say or do anything you don't feel like doing or saying. i am happy admiring you from this distance. just be who you are. cause i know that you are a messenger and the inspiration that i need in my life right now. i will let time tell me why He let our paths cross. by then the reason shall be clear.