things have been changing...rather changed!

old trees are being uprooted
and new ones may be planted soon
so many changes in my backyard
i am afraid i may not recognize it
when I go home

it's his last day in the company today
after today, there will other events
that will change what i called home.

part of me accepts, and part is sad
sad because changes bring a phase of unknown.
you are part of the picture when i speak of "home"
and by tomorrow
i have to get used to some people not being where they usually are
that by the time I do get there some guys may be on a different raft.

i hold on to the assurance that despite the movement
that it's not about the company, but rather the relationship
that the friendship is what's important.

we may move on to other places, jobs or get married
but that does not change that we are friends.

n said that we will not know
what will happen tomorrow or a week from now
what's been happening the past couple of weeks
is giving the statement its truth.

jangan kamu lupa! we will keep in touch!

dear God,

i have this growing feeling in me
that i want to explore beyond my box
that i want to be able to see if i can exist
apart from what i deem comfortable

to pack my bags and open a new door
to another world that i do not know yet

i ask that you create doors for me
and remind me they can come in many shapes

i'd like to be able to go to a new place
for at least a year
this is my hearts wish

Graduating Life With Honors

Song Of Myself
by Walt Whitman

"You shall no longer take things at second or third hand,
not look through the eyes of the dead,
nor feed on the spectres in books.

You shall not look through my eyes either,
nor take things from me,
you shall listen to all sides
and filter them from yourself."

silly silly men

yes you are a silly man
which little bird
told you that getting engaged
solves problems?
point, so i can shoot it

i should hit you in the head
theres more sense in that

havent we all learned
from our other friend
who didnt do it out of love
now theres 2 of you, oh make that 3!

open your eyes
there is still hope
you silly silly men....

______________

20 Feb 2009

i like giving pet names
so to the 3 of you
i officially knight as you as
the tunang boys

yes you are boys that
in my opinion have hangups
one didnt do it out of love
the other did it to get noticed
by the woman he really loved
and the newest member...
why did you go through with it na nga?

*sigh*

benjamin said...

For what it's worth:
it's never too late or, in my case,
too early to be whoever you want to be.

There's no time limit,
stop whenever you want.
You can change or stay the same,
there are no rules to this thing.
We can make the best or the worst of it.

I hope you make the best of it.
And I hope you see things that startle you.
I hope you feel things you never felt before.
I hope you meet people with a different point of view.
I hope you live a life you're proud of.

If you find that you're not,
I hope you have the strength
to start all over again.

-the curious case of benjamin button

then i cried and then laughed.

it happens quite often like a natural reaction
because in my life, I embrace
the marriage of comedy and drama.

that these too opposites have solemly sworn
to be a couple in each and every moment
of my life journey

this movie proved, i am not alone in this thinking.

there was once a little girl...

that loved to sing this song ...



she memorized it
it even came with some fancy sign language hand movements

it was back when...
she had passion
and in her head she could see
where it was she wanted to go.

then the notes changed
together with things around her.

today, the song found her again.

Zahir

AKU BUKAN UNTUK MU
I'm Not Meant For You
by Rossa

You used to love me
You used to want me
Although you never had my answer
Didn't mean that you should leave me

Now you're going astray
Now you're leaving me
Just when I started to rely on you
And I plead you to forgive me

I regret that I've made you cry
And let you choose someone else
But don't ever deny your destiny
Because it must be the best for you

Don't ever remember me anymore
I'm not meant for you
Even if I beg and ask for your heart
Don't ever leave her for me

Now you're going astray
Now you're leaving me
Just when I started to rely on you
And I plead you to forgive me


I regret that I've made you cry
And let you choose someone else
But don't ever deny your destiny
Because it must be the best for you

Don't ever remember me anymore
I'm not meant for you
Even if I beg and ask for your heart
Don't ever leave her for me

Even if I beg and ask for your heart
Don't ever leave her for me