maybe...is this another game?

i like how it felt
but then
i am more mind than heart now
plus the doubts of rebound

so am i playing another game?
i think im too tired for that now

what then?
do u have the answers?
and will you reveal?

long goodbye

india arie sings...

u dont't have to stay forever
i take passion over pride
full moon, high tide
let's make it a long goodbye

tomorrow we'll pick up the pieces
try to mend our broken lives
soft kiss, sweet lies
let's make it a long goodbye


we need to always...
live passionately
love fully, unconditionally

cause we'll know when its time
to get up and walk away

it has for me

confessional boxes

we are each other's confessional boxes
where secrets freely roam
release, set free
and baggage no more

then we can return
to our lives lived deep
till the marrow of it we hit

what once was teasing
is now a friendship
unconventional yet refreshing
a mirror image of personalities
keeping connected, in touch

good night boxie
till our next confession

too many topic sentences. no body. argh.

so many things in my head i want to unload.
i try to write them down
but theres too much
and it ends up not making any sense.
like everything I write is a topic sentence
and I can't seem to follow through with a body.

does that happen to you? what do you when it does?

i suck as a writer.

am i willing to take a pay cut?

i bruise easily, so the song goes.
this one is true for me in many ways,
especially today.

i thought what they wanted to think over was the allowances.
so when I got the call,
i was expecting either yes or no regarding that.
but when they told me about the basic they were offering,
i felt a kick to the throat.
it was even lower than what my previous job was giving me.

i liked the company, and i wanted to join them.
but does that mean I'll take that much of a pay cut?
i wasn't asking for too much,
but what they wanted was way below industry standards.
like low, low, low, low!

this is why you need to have a plan B.
so that if plan A doesn't push through,
there's a net to catch you.
i don't have a plan B, not yet that is.

dear Lord, please let them reconsider.

redemption and hope

my intial interview for this company was a shock
right after it i found myself walking aimslesly in eastwood
thinking what was that, what was i thinking

so it was a shock that they called me in for a final interview
this time with the training manager

while waiting in the lobby for my name to be called
i was watching people go in and out and thought
theyre happy, and the culture is light
just the way i like it

the interview with the training manager went well
well i least I thought it did
and somehow I felt i was in the zone
i also liked how open the communication was
if he were my boss we would work well

so i am praying hard now
this is a company and a job that i am very much open to invest in

so friday, hopefully I get the verdict
please join me in lobbying with the heavens