PAUSE.....PLAY
its like i've been away for a such a long time (duh what's 1 month!) but there have been a lot of changes to the people around me that I have to cope up with.
AHHH XAYMACA...this is definitely one of the places i missed when i went on vacation. i was looking for a reggae bar in thailand but i didnt find any. last night was just great. i had my favorite bottle on one hand, listening to Session Road, seeing that "aliw guy" again, i had "el" with me and people were dancing all around us! my xaymaca come back would have been more exciting if my soul sisters were there. JiLL, was nice t o finally meet you in person. I'll looking forwarding to bumping into you every now and then...see ya!
AFTER XAYMACA FOODFEST... we couldn't go to Mr. Kabab for a reason i will just accept and respect. so it was burger machine instead. the one infront of ABS CBN. jumbo bart burger with cheese and coleslaw, yum-eee! it doesnt really matter where as long as I was able to spend time with "el" and my soul bro. i miss special chelo kabab though and persian guy.
OH NO NIGHT SHIFT AGAIN...it was really a reminder that the pass month was simply a pause at life, now that its back to play it means not having much time for carpe diem nights as we call it. not being able to see certain people that have occupied my life for almost a month. rather its back to thinking about skills and the methodologies i need to use for my trainees to learn them.
CATCHING UP....people gone from work, friends having problems and seeing my "crushie" enjoy working. some of the things that have changed in a month. i had a talk with a friend that will always have a space in my heart, and he was having serious and emotionally-draining problems. he couldn't even smile anymore. sad that he used to have so much energy and i really enjoyed the time i spent with him. now he looks tired and there is much confusion in his eyes. he even blames himself. well like he said he has to figure this out by himself. i treasure this friend and i wish him happines and more creativity in life. to you...know that i will forever be a call away, i miss our coffee times. alot has happend and i was not here to experience it.
well i had managed to pause my life but eventually i would have to resume. hit the play button. i'll get by!
Friday, April 25, 2003
Wednesday, April 23, 2003
BACK TO WORK
yup...back to work indeed! we do have a new office now (just a floor below) and now we have more privacy, which is good. I still feel unmotivated (is there such a word?) and i still did my delaying tactics this morning. guess my vacation wasn't really as productive as they would have wanted it. *sigh*
i talked to my boss and the deal was 3 months to commit and i might go back to school. or if i get the offer at the other "center" then its only a month that i can offer. i still don't know what i really want to do. but one thing i learned from all my mind-boggling thinking during my break, was that i really have to take it as it comes. i don't know its simply a mystery....
yup...back to work indeed! we do have a new office now (just a floor below) and now we have more privacy, which is good. I still feel unmotivated (is there such a word?) and i still did my delaying tactics this morning. guess my vacation wasn't really as productive as they would have wanted it. *sigh*
i talked to my boss and the deal was 3 months to commit and i might go back to school. or if i get the offer at the other "center" then its only a month that i can offer. i still don't know what i really want to do. but one thing i learned from all my mind-boggling thinking during my break, was that i really have to take it as it comes. i don't know its simply a mystery....
Tuesday, April 22, 2003
Saturday, April 12, 2003
REALITY CHECK
vacation's over. I'm back in manila.
simply means gotta go fight my demons again. ahhh career choice demons once more. a very tough one between what my heart wants and what will enable me to survive. just the thought of this makes my head throb. to practical or follow the road towards my dreams. sigh!
as of now i am leaning towards being practical. don't get me wrong i am not totally shelving arts and culture, its just a "now" thing. i need to survive. maybe- and i stress on the unsure part of this- i can save up some money then gear towards what i really see myself doing. its so hard to be nice and energetic when you don't have a roof on your head or if your stomach is empty.
this sounds so easy...but it never is. oh Great Spirit, it is your guidance i need!!
vacation's over. I'm back in manila.
simply means gotta go fight my demons again. ahhh career choice demons once more. a very tough one between what my heart wants and what will enable me to survive. just the thought of this makes my head throb. to practical or follow the road towards my dreams. sigh!
as of now i am leaning towards being practical. don't get me wrong i am not totally shelving arts and culture, its just a "now" thing. i need to survive. maybe- and i stress on the unsure part of this- i can save up some money then gear towards what i really see myself doing. its so hard to be nice and energetic when you don't have a roof on your head or if your stomach is empty.
this sounds so easy...but it never is. oh Great Spirit, it is your guidance i need!!
Thursday, April 10, 2003
BANGKOK
its so similar to Manila. tomorow i will have a day to myself. my parents will be going on a whole day trip to Ayuttaya, one of the ancient capitals of Thailand. I decided to stay in Bangkok since I would like to go to Jim Thompson's House. A museum that showcases authentic Thai interior design. That interests me more than the ruins of Ayuttaya though if I could just pick both I would. I am also decided to give Khao San Road a visit tomorrow. I learned so much about Thailand culture today that I am pretty much interested to explore more about it.
There's been a slight change in plans. My Dad needs to be in a meeting by Saturaday and so we booked a flight back on that day. That means we will be missing out the Songkran Festival. Dang it! Not to mention I will not be seeing Iwan and Chris! I am praying for a miracle though that my Dad will give me enough money to stay one more day. I can even live on Khao San even if it will on a tight budget. Oh soul sisters I wish you were here with me.
its so similar to Manila. tomorow i will have a day to myself. my parents will be going on a whole day trip to Ayuttaya, one of the ancient capitals of Thailand. I decided to stay in Bangkok since I would like to go to Jim Thompson's House. A museum that showcases authentic Thai interior design. That interests me more than the ruins of Ayuttaya though if I could just pick both I would. I am also decided to give Khao San Road a visit tomorrow. I learned so much about Thailand culture today that I am pretty much interested to explore more about it.
There's been a slight change in plans. My Dad needs to be in a meeting by Saturaday and so we booked a flight back on that day. That means we will be missing out the Songkran Festival. Dang it! Not to mention I will not be seeing Iwan and Chris! I am praying for a miracle though that my Dad will give me enough money to stay one more day. I can even live on Khao San even if it will on a tight budget. Oh soul sisters I wish you were here with me.
Tuesday, April 08, 2003
Hmmm...it's my last full day in Pattaya and I will be headed to Bangkok by noon of tomorrow. That means goodbye beach. Noooo...i don't want to go!!!!
Well so far I have been to Nong Nooch Garden which a huge garden with almost everything pretty in it. They had a French Garden, Temple Replicas, a huge English Garden, Orchid and Bromeiliad Gardens. The best one was a full Stonehenge Replica!! I think I know my alternative place to make a life time committment. Now to find a groom...tsk tsk...not an easy task.
I think this trip was not necessarily for me. I believe it was more of for my Dad. He needs time away from all the pressures of his job. Here he is free to roam the streets without thinking of what people will say. No one knows him here. Well Papa, enjoy!
As for me this trip has been an eye opener that indeed I thrive in adventure and exploration. I love being able to roam the streets and try to figure out their language- mind you it is no easy task. I also realize I have a different energy when I'm near the beach. As I said the beaches here are too crowded but still I just get a boost of energy when I'm near it and can see it.
As for the decisions that are waiting for me back home. Well, just one thing...i'll be taking it a day at the tiome. Who knows I might juist go back to school. Or better yet move to a new country. As for now I need to go back and tie up loose ends! I love holidays...makes it easier to think.
Well so far I have been to Nong Nooch Garden which a huge garden with almost everything pretty in it. They had a French Garden, Temple Replicas, a huge English Garden, Orchid and Bromeiliad Gardens. The best one was a full Stonehenge Replica!! I think I know my alternative place to make a life time committment. Now to find a groom...tsk tsk...not an easy task.
I think this trip was not necessarily for me. I believe it was more of for my Dad. He needs time away from all the pressures of his job. Here he is free to roam the streets without thinking of what people will say. No one knows him here. Well Papa, enjoy!
As for me this trip has been an eye opener that indeed I thrive in adventure and exploration. I love being able to roam the streets and try to figure out their language- mind you it is no easy task. I also realize I have a different energy when I'm near the beach. As I said the beaches here are too crowded but still I just get a boost of energy when I'm near it and can see it.
As for the decisions that are waiting for me back home. Well, just one thing...i'll be taking it a day at the tiome. Who knows I might juist go back to school. Or better yet move to a new country. As for now I need to go back and tie up loose ends! I love holidays...makes it easier to think.
Saturday, April 05, 2003
SOUTH PATTAYA, THAILAND
in a resort called Sigma in JomTien Beach, is the place I will be calling home for the nest 5 days. Finally I have found an internet shope that is not so expensive, so now I will be able to at least blog and check my mail.
The view from our room is simple spectacular! I had to take tons of pictures because of the that. The people are very friendly except that I really need to explain myself everyime I need something. Most of the people speak Thai and they have a hard time with english, even their keyboard is in Thai! But its been a blast exploring! I would have loved to go to the beaches but its a bit crowded, so i believe the hotel pool would do just fine. we might take some tours tomorrow to the Elephant Village and the Nong Nooch Botanical Gardens.
i just got news that we will be in Bangkok in time for the Thai New Year, that would be something to look forward to. There so much to do here and I can see that he's having a good time himslef. We spent the morning looking through brochures and I haven't done that with him for the longest time.
time to hit the pool!
in a resort called Sigma in JomTien Beach, is the place I will be calling home for the nest 5 days. Finally I have found an internet shope that is not so expensive, so now I will be able to at least blog and check my mail.
The view from our room is simple spectacular! I had to take tons of pictures because of the that. The people are very friendly except that I really need to explain myself everyime I need something. Most of the people speak Thai and they have a hard time with english, even their keyboard is in Thai! But its been a blast exploring! I would have loved to go to the beaches but its a bit crowded, so i believe the hotel pool would do just fine. we might take some tours tomorrow to the Elephant Village and the Nong Nooch Botanical Gardens.
i just got news that we will be in Bangkok in time for the Thai New Year, that would be something to look forward to. There so much to do here and I can see that he's having a good time himslef. We spent the morning looking through brochures and I haven't done that with him for the longest time.
time to hit the pool!
Thursday, April 03, 2003
Wednesday, April 02, 2003
LAST TWO DAYS
went to the mall today to get my carry-on pack. i am so excited to the maximum definition of excited. i've basically packed my clothes, except for those i am still drying out right now. i'm planning on making a scrapbook of this trip so i've done my cut-outs as well. pray for safety on this trip and that my dad will be able to clear his mind of stress. guess everyone in the family needs this. hope i stay away from trouble. hee hee ™
went to the mall today to get my carry-on pack. i am so excited to the maximum definition of excited. i've basically packed my clothes, except for those i am still drying out right now. i'm planning on making a scrapbook of this trip so i've done my cut-outs as well. pray for safety on this trip and that my dad will be able to clear his mind of stress. guess everyone in the family needs this. hope i stay away from trouble. hee hee ™
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